Mother of Three Boys?

As the title has clearly indicated, I am expecting again. With another boy.

This pregnancy has been smooth sailing and so far, the easiest yet. I think the biggest factor is my weight loss prior to this pregnancy. I am still in obese according to my BMI (which I have been since high school *rolled eyes*). But, I started my pregnancy at least 10kg lighter than my weight during my wedding and now at 18weeks pregnancy, I have yet to reach that milestone yet.

No high blood pressure as assured by my cardiologist and no GDM. No spotting. I am still able to lug my heavy backpack to and fro the office via LRT. No morning sickness but I have evening to midnight sickness which I am okay since it doesn't interfere with my work schedule. Basically, I am very thankful for this pregnancy lack of issues :)

But, I don't get any pregnancy glow this time around. I have acne, dry & dull skin, my hair is shedding heavily sampai my husband getting worried looking at the amount of hair in the bathroom everyday despite my effort to kutip every helai yang gugur. 

Besides getting ready to deliver the baby, I have other "things" to deliver before I can take my peaceful maternity leave next year. I wanted to deliver this work project with flying colours as it is due for completion one month before my EDD and my home renovation project at least 2 months before my EDD.

So many things to do, so little time to think through.

At least I scrolled out my delivery matters this time around. After 2 emergency csec, this time I decided for elective csec no matter what. I will cramp as much nutrient I can to get a big baby (hoping for more than 3kg) and set a date sometimes end February or early March for the birth. My birth plan will be very simple, elective csec with full GA. I don't want to choose epidural and suddenly it failed in the OT again. Both my baby still get first APGAR reading of 9/10 even with full GA. Simple. Easy peasy. No drama.

Tanpa tajuk (akan difikirkan :P)

Dalam aku busy dengan kehidupan seharian, tiba2 teringat dengan kawan2 lama. Terasa macam baru semalam bersembang all night long pasal life masing2 yang serabut haru biru.

Sekarang, semua dah settle down. Ada keluarga. Ada tanggungjawab. Banyak bil yang perlu dibayar.

Kawan2 jatuh nombor 2, kan?

Masa ni baru terfikir betapa bersyukurnya aku sebab I married my best friend. Kawan lama dari zaman belajar, kawan mengadu masa masing2 putus cinta, kawan bersembang masa kawan2 lain dah mula settle down dan kami masih struggle dengan kehidupan.

Walaupon dulu lepak kat kedai mamak 10 orang dan sekarang aku cuma bersembang larut malam dengan seorang. Aku bersyukur sebab si dia, lelaki yang aku panggil suami ni kenal aku sejak lebih 15 tahun dulu. Tak perlu aku nak berahsia, tak perlu aku nak cover-up kisah lama yang penuh cela, tak perlu aku nak berlagak sesuci malaikat tiada dosa. Dia tau semua kisah aku dan aku tau kisah dia.

Tenang.

Anniversary ke-5 bakal menjelma. Tak sangka, kan?

Happy New Year

It is already 2018 and I barely wrote anything to welcome it.

Well, I will be 35 years old (Gasp!) this year and no longer the angsty, broken and emo as what I was 10 years ago. I no longer feel the urge to let the world know my name nor show to the world my anger.

I am contented.

How different I am right now from who I was 10 years ago? A lot.

But, whenever I look at this blog and try to reminisce the good ol' days.. I can only say that some deeds are better forgotten, but I can never forget.

My world